Over committed

I am over committed. I haven't blogged in a while because of it. I haven't done a lot of things, like organize my drawers, file the mail, clean up the storage closet, put away the last size of baby clothes, that are still sitting in the bottom of my daughters closet and the list goes on.

I am over committed at work. I have a number of assignments that are incredibility time consuming. I am I love my work, its totally fulfilling but, it can be draining. I mean I am not that special, people always say government workers are lazy, they don't do their work on time. Its not true, we have so much work that we cant get it all done, well at least most of us, there are of course a few...

I am overcommitted in my personal life. I am on my alumni committee, I am a matron of honor in a wedding this year (one of my best friends) and next year (my sister) and a bridesmaid (my brother). I am attending other weddings, communions, baby showers, throwing parties for family members and the list of events go on. My husband isn't much better, with two jobs, in weddings and overcommitted.

We give. We give to our families, our friends but not so much ourselves. And no one seems to notice and say 'hey do you  guys need anything?'

I spend a lot of time thinking about my breaking point. Sometimes I feel like I'm getting close to it.

Will today be the day that pushes me over the edge?

Will I totally lose it and refuse to go to work or throw things all over the house because I'm losing the battle on cleanliness?

Its is very possible that tomorrow might be the day. Or the next. I mean if I have to deal with one more responsibility I might go crazy, be that crazy woman in the grocery store that talks to herself in a sarcastic tone, her hair is a mess and she looks like a zombie. That might be me soon.
But until then I will just keep bringing this candle from both ends. As I'm sure most working moms feel.